I am studying the book of Esther along with some other women and technically with Beth Moore since it is her bible study. I am behind in my daily lessons because I simply forgot them with all the busyness I had this past week. Now I am trying to catch up. Anyway, this lesson I am on is about Esther 4:4-8...
"The portion that stood out to me was the discussion about verse 4. Esther sends Mordecia clothes and he refused them. There is speculation as to why she did this... I felt being Queen and Mordecia being her guardian she was embarrassed by him. The book said maybe she wanted him to change so he could come see her, he couldn't as he was dressed.
Beth Moore explains that sackcloth and ashes were a way to make a person humble and as one who is dead. It is a noticeable change in status and state. It was a form of repentance. She said, "He needed more than a change of clothes." All the Jewish people there did.... and another statement was "Most of our problems are a world deeper than our appearance." That made me think of a song and one specific lyric in it... God's gotta change her heart before he changes her shirt." (Casting Crowns, What this World Needs).
Too many times we want to change the way someone looks on the outside, so they will feel better on the inside. It doesn't work that way. You have to change the inside to make the outside look better. We tell people who are sad or depressed, "smile, it will make it better". When that really won't help or if it does it is a temporary fix.
I want to be someone who gets this and doesn't look on the outward appearance... I want to see the heart of the matter. I want to be a catalysis of change that God can use in myself and others. I need a change of heart :)
Casting Crowns Song