Ok, so my Anonymous friend must really wanting me to write something. So I will :P
As I am travelling down this road of life I hit all kinds of bumps along the way. You would think I would be smart enough to maneuver around them or at least not let them surprise me so much. Yet, they still come so unexpectedly and many hit hard.
I am the worlds worst at letting one or two people determine how I feel about myself it seems. It is the way I have always been and believe me I try not to let the things people say, what they do to me, or the looks I get bother me. It is very hard. So the past few weeks has been no exception. In my sadness, my hurt, God spoke to me. On Sundays, we usually read in unison the bible passage for the sermon. This Sunday the passage was Romans 12.... all of it! Now I have verse 1 and 2 memorized because they are favorites of mine. "I beseech you there for brethren by the mercies of God that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God which is your reasonable service. And do not conform to this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind that you my prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. Now right there tells me that as long as I am serving God and trying my best to be a transformed person I should not worry about what others think. Yet, I do.... and the Chapter goes on....
As Roman 12 continues we read about spiritual gifts, all of them are not mentioned. The point is as a christian we are all given at least one gift and it is given to aid in the work of the body which is spoken of also. It speaks about how we should look at ourselves and others, how we should treat and care for others. This is where God started speaking to me.... The people who had said things or done things the past few weeks were not doing as this scripture says. and just as plain as day God was telling me... STOP worrying about them.... I have your back.... I called you to do what you do and I called you for who you are in Me! When someone hurts you don't take it out on them, or yourself.... Vengeance is Mine!
Now, I do not wish for God to do anything to anyone, that is not the point... the point God was making for me in that moment was.... He made me who I am in Him, and even though I am not perfect and I make mistakes HE made me! HE does not make JUNK! I need to stop letting them have my joy, my happiness, and my self-esteem. I say have because they can't take it from me unless I give it to them.... God wants me to STOP!